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i really hate my grandpa. you are supposed to love them. but i hate this one. my mom's dad. yuck. he is a really scummy man. and becuase of his long asbsence from his childrens' lives, he tries to email all of his grandchildren. i hate him. he thinks he's so god dman brilliant. thinks he's a really gifted painter. yeah, thats all he's ever done. he's skipped around the worl painting, he's had about 5 wives now (he's just married the 5th) and never gave my mom's family anything. he is now trying to contact me, trying to ask about my life etc. and it makes me sick. he thinks we all love him, but deep down i dont think any of us feel he's a grandfather, just in blood and name. sorry i just feel so bad my mom had to put up with that fucker.
other than that, good things may finally come my way. i just turned in my fourth and last paper of the semester. i now need to worry about exams. yippee skippee. hope all others are feeling ok with their uni shit.
i am really hoping dave is going to make some effort with me now that he isnt working. before i could understand if he was tired or didnt want to hang out or whatever, but now since he just has to be at home or hang out with friends, i am really hoping he will take me out etc. wait a sec....he's on centrelink. he won't be taking me out. i decided to do a "test" not to fail dave but just see what happens when a girlfriend says nothing. and so i am not going to ask him to take me out like i did before (not that it worked, we still havent gone out). if he takes me out before he goes away i will feel a lot better, but if he makes no effort i will be really let down. even with the excuse of being on less money i dont care, becuase even when he was on 5oo a week he never did anything. i don't know. is it rude or bitchy to want your boyfriend to take you out? am i expecting the princess treatment or something? i feel torn, like i should be treated a little bit. i mean, when i buy dave gifts i go out of my way, i even volunteer to pay for certain things sometimes that i dont need to as my way of doing what a boyfriend should as well. anyways this all material bullshit isnt it?
no one wants to hear about this shit. sorry.
other than that, good things may finally come my way. i just turned in my fourth and last paper of the semester. i now need to worry about exams. yippee skippee. hope all others are feeling ok with their uni shit.
i am really hoping dave is going to make some effort with me now that he isnt working. before i could understand if he was tired or didnt want to hang out or whatever, but now since he just has to be at home or hang out with friends, i am really hoping he will take me out etc. wait a sec....he's on centrelink. he won't be taking me out. i decided to do a "test" not to fail dave but just see what happens when a girlfriend says nothing. and so i am not going to ask him to take me out like i did before (not that it worked, we still havent gone out). if he takes me out before he goes away i will feel a lot better, but if he makes no effort i will be really let down. even with the excuse of being on less money i dont care, becuase even when he was on 5oo a week he never did anything. i don't know. is it rude or bitchy to want your boyfriend to take you out? am i expecting the princess treatment or something? i feel torn, like i should be treated a little bit. i mean, when i buy dave gifts i go out of my way, i even volunteer to pay for certain things sometimes that i dont need to as my way of doing what a boyfriend should as well. anyways this all material bullshit isnt it?
no one wants to hear about this shit. sorry.