once, twice, three times a lady.....
hello LJ land. how are we today? really? and how does that make you feel? very good, or, bad. yes.
decided to stop whining about dave and all that crap. needless. stupid. wasteful. enough said.
really love dave, am hoping that after he gets back he'll be more up to making some, shall we say, "grownup" choices. my mom said that perhaps, just maybe, this trip to czech is his last "hurrah" (or he may see it as the last as a young man) before he starts making some desicions. i know he wont do anything till he gets a job. i pray to the job god he gets one fast.
i just want to know what the hell i am going to do next year. or rather what i will do in 2008. i graduate at the end of next year and then what? we have plnas to maybe go to melbourne for a while, probably not long. i dont even know if we should still do it. i dont know ehrre i want to go. i feel really stuck and clueless. nowhere feels right. they only desicion i know i can make is that if dave and i ever broke up i would for sure go back to sydney. but other than that, if we still are together, what the fuck are we going to do?????? i guess thats why i am stressing about if dave will ever make desicions regarding that kind of stuff. i need to know if we'll be going in the same direction or not, becuase i dont feel like holding back or staying somewhere where i feel is wrong. dave said the cliche "i wont hold you back" when i asked if he was ever going to do stuff. i cant stand that shit. i'm trying to be respectful by not just deciding without his input. i am hoping to stay with him, but it's all so fucking confusing.
anyway, leave it to, yeah, to fall in love with a great guy....who just wont grow up. i knew it would fucking happen. its the only thing i'm really worried will ruin our relationship. and i REFUSE to again be the girlfriend who teaches the guy the lesson and then he wises up for the NEXT girlfriend. no. fuck that. i am sick of being shat on and taken for granted and then once i'm gone they decise to be everything they werent for the next retard slag. not fair not fair!!!!
i just want this year to be over. then i'll have one last year left and be able to get rid of the fucking macca's job and be free. free is good.
decided to stop whining about dave and all that crap. needless. stupid. wasteful. enough said.
really love dave, am hoping that after he gets back he'll be more up to making some, shall we say, "grownup" choices. my mom said that perhaps, just maybe, this trip to czech is his last "hurrah" (or he may see it as the last as a young man) before he starts making some desicions. i know he wont do anything till he gets a job. i pray to the job god he gets one fast.
i just want to know what the hell i am going to do next year. or rather what i will do in 2008. i graduate at the end of next year and then what? we have plnas to maybe go to melbourne for a while, probably not long. i dont even know if we should still do it. i dont know ehrre i want to go. i feel really stuck and clueless. nowhere feels right. they only desicion i know i can make is that if dave and i ever broke up i would for sure go back to sydney. but other than that, if we still are together, what the fuck are we going to do?????? i guess thats why i am stressing about if dave will ever make desicions regarding that kind of stuff. i need to know if we'll be going in the same direction or not, becuase i dont feel like holding back or staying somewhere where i feel is wrong. dave said the cliche "i wont hold you back" when i asked if he was ever going to do stuff. i cant stand that shit. i'm trying to be respectful by not just deciding without his input. i am hoping to stay with him, but it's all so fucking confusing.
anyway, leave it to, yeah, to fall in love with a great guy....who just wont grow up. i knew it would fucking happen. its the only thing i'm really worried will ruin our relationship. and i REFUSE to again be the girlfriend who teaches the guy the lesson and then he wises up for the NEXT girlfriend. no. fuck that. i am sick of being shat on and taken for granted and then once i'm gone they decise to be everything they werent for the next retard slag. not fair not fair!!!!
i just want this year to be over. then i'll have one last year left and be able to get rid of the fucking macca's job and be free. free is good.