Froze my Plurk and delete the link to it because I'm a misanthrope and really, what's the point. It's pretty much the same over there as it is here. People talk to me on occasion, but never like they do with others. Visiting there just makes me more aware of how fucking isolated I am and how hopeless things are ( Read more... )

( If you're going to give me flack for having a shitty day, don't bother clicking. )

Instead of Everything Reminds Me of My Therapist, everything reminds my of my cat. I was doing okay today until I set the groceries down out in the kitchen; Salem would always be right there to inspect the bags, looking for whatever smelled appealing. When there wasn't any black kitty to shoo away, I just teared up. Me and this box of tissues are ( Read more... )

Problem: We're not so much a family as we are three people living in the same house.
Solution: ...

Bah. I don't think I can play anyone other than my redheads.

So many things to bitch about, but I won't. I just want to pack up and leave.

Goddamn I'm unpleasant today.

I'm back to only talking with a couple people on a regular basis and I hate it. I've had this feeling before and it's usually around the time we quit talking all together. I really don't understand relationships. There's only like three levels of friendship with me and everything is very... clearcut ( Read more... )

Calling a hiatus from the internet sounds more and more appealing, yet I know I wouldn't make it past breakfast without the need to check my mail in hopes of finding something that strikes my interest. Plus I want to get all my junk for sale listed. Maybe buying myself some doujinshi would help my morale. Though the fees are going to be a bitch, I ( Read more... )

Sleeping all day might be a slight hint of depression. Just maybe. So could deleting a bunch of crap I used to look over all the time. Will probably be deleting this later too. Been mulling over the idea of ditching some twenty-two journals and just being done with it all. Kinda like throwing away my 'graduation' pictures; getting rid of what has ( Read more... )

Blah blah blah hate weekends blah blah blah blah stupid family not using their goddamn cell phones, making me hysterical with worry blah blah blah hate that place blah blah icons blah blah blah blah don't give a shit blah blah blah blah art always sucks blah blah thankfully almost tired.

I would be a lot better off if my emotions had a damn switch I could flip to shut them off. I wish I didn't care and that I was as cold and numb as I say I am. I'd get a lot more done by not being hurt all the time, by every damned thing. Being able to shut everything and everyone out would be a blessing.

This last wisdom tooth has got to fucking ( Read more... )