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Not sure how I'm feeling... There are two and a half months left of my first semester of law school. I have one grade back and it was a B minus. That was a quiz. I've taken two midterms since, and I'm really eager to see how I'm doing, so I can course correct accordingly. I know I'm not doing law school the way my peers are, and I've felt okay with that so far. I think they are major type As and have frantic energy. They're so intense because a lot of them came straight from undergrad. I could be their mom. So to me, they freak out a lot, unnecessarily. BUT, when grades come in, if they did better than me, then I'll know maybe I need to be more like them.... I honestly don't want to compare, though. I feel good about how I'm operating...
As far as a social life, I am on facebook dating simply to have someone to text here and there. I don't want to meet anyone in person. I barely have time to have consistent conversations. Also, the men are extremely undesirable. I've only chatted with two that are normal and attractive. And that's out of hundreds of men within a sixty mile radius. I thought the pickings back home were bad. It's just as bad here, it's just at least I don't recognize anyone from high school.
I miss home a lot. I mean, my apartment and my family. I'm going to Atlanta for Thanksgiving, but I'll be home twice in December. I'm spending New Year's Eve here, probably alone. Sometimes I think I want to go to DC. Sometimes I consider celebrating in a new country, which was the plan last year before my mother got sick. At this point, I just want my family and I to see the New Year. I really hate that my grandmother is gone. That was random, but not really, because I am still deeply grieving and I think of her and miss her dearly to tears every single day.