Not even two month
Its not even been two months since my last journal entry and my life has totally changed again. In that entry I considered what it would be like to make the choice to leave. Right now I'm having to make the choice of how much I should fight to stay.
I feel like shit, I hate Greg, I hate Marvel, and I hate John.
I'm sitting in this room realizing that I won't ever be here again. I feel so naked, my one guiding plan that kept me sane has been taken away.
I have two choices it comes down to, to take this time off and work my ass off to fill these weaknesses I have in my music education or change directions. All the pain that I've just been through really makes me want to walk away from music, but what kind of teacher would I be if I did that.
I feel like such a loser now, I'm the only one in our cohort that isn't good enough to stay. Tuomi was right, I can't convince anyone that I'm ready to be a music teacher.
They're not saying I can't come back, but I know that things are going to be really hard when I leave.
I feel like shit, I hate Greg, I hate Marvel, and I hate John.
I'm sitting in this room realizing that I won't ever be here again. I feel so naked, my one guiding plan that kept me sane has been taken away.
I have two choices it comes down to, to take this time off and work my ass off to fill these weaknesses I have in my music education or change directions. All the pain that I've just been through really makes me want to walk away from music, but what kind of teacher would I be if I did that.
I feel like such a loser now, I'm the only one in our cohort that isn't good enough to stay. Tuomi was right, I can't convince anyone that I'm ready to be a music teacher.
They're not saying I can't come back, but I know that things are going to be really hard when I leave.