So, one of my best friends is turning 21 this Wednesday... My sister is planning this big thing with going to some bars and dinner and just...yeah. but, for my 21st birthday I got to go to dinner with my family, not even where I wanted to go, and with family I don't even really like. Then, a week later I went to a bar with Kira and her friends... ( Read more... )

I.

Looking for a job
is going on far too long
my heart yearns to quit

II.

Tears trail hot down cheeks
tired of being so far
from being happy

III.

About to give up
Tired of being compared
to the beautiful

IV.

Sick of rejection
Eleven months is too long
to care anymore

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Today is the first day in 2 months I haven't talked to Zack... even when he didn't have his phone he would email me...

I feel terrible

Have you ever felt so alone that you can almost feel your heart break into a million little pieces and feel those pieces fall one by one, painfully, and slowly into your your feet stabbing you from every angle like shards of broken glass... cutting everything along the way, so you are bleeding on the inside and slowly moving to cuts on the outside ( Read more... )

so I just ate an entire quart of ice cream...

while crying...

how is it that I can be so depressed about something so trivial?  I mean, it doesn't even really matter... though it did hurt a lot...

here's what happened:
my buddy Josh was feeling down, so tonight we went out to dinner (well, breakfast at Village Inn) so we were talking and having a good ( Read more... )