I dunno
So, one of my best friends is turning 21 this Wednesday... My sister is planning this big thing with going to some bars and dinner and just...yeah. but, for my 21st birthday I got to go to dinner with my family, not even where I wanted to go, and with family I don't even really like. Then, a week later I went to a bar with Kira and her friends... a sports bar... bleh. My sixteenth birthday? nothing. eighteenth? nothing. twenty-first? nothing. next big birthday at thirty or forty? probably nothing. I even tried having a big thing for my nineteenth birthday that I paid for, decorated for, etc. and then everyone who came ended up getting high while there. I don't like feeling resentful towards my family and especially my friends... but I do. I can't really help it. I try to not care about my birthday anymore because they always turn out shitty. bleh. whatever.