down hill for good...
ok well the only good things that has happend to me has been overcome by the one bad thing that happend! Brian broke up with me! I just dont understand...he said that over the past three weeks he had been...in some words...falling out of like with me and now he just didnt have those feelings. It just to hard for me to believe that he just all of a sudden doesnt like me anymore. He told me on the phone that is was just a relationship and that it was not set in stone and that it had to future. But I mean he told me that he saw a future with me and that meeting me was God. I just dont see why God would bring him into my life, let me START giving my heart to him, and than take him away.
I told brian that I was scared to have a reltaionship because everyone only wants sex or something! he told me that he feels the same way and that I didnt have to worry about it becasue I had him now and that he would never push me. Ok, see I understand what he was saying when he said "its just a relationship" because it was crazy for me to think that ANY guy would really always be there for me. But I still have a hard time believeing that what he had could just go away like that! I miss him so much, I think I could have prevented it from happening...the last weekend I saw him I was not very hyper and in the mood to have fun, I had a bad week so I was kinda donw in the dumps and I think I made him mad. All I know is that I will contintu to pray and that I will always care for him and if he ever wants to try again I will drop everything and be there for him in half a heart beat! Because I still care and I cant believe that he doesnt. I wonder if there is another girl or if I was just a summer fling or maybe he got scared of his feelings and ran away from them. All I know is that I believe God put is together and I will never give up!
I told brian that I was scared to have a reltaionship because everyone only wants sex or something! he told me that he feels the same way and that I didnt have to worry about it becasue I had him now and that he would never push me. Ok, see I understand what he was saying when he said "its just a relationship" because it was crazy for me to think that ANY guy would really always be there for me. But I still have a hard time believeing that what he had could just go away like that! I miss him so much, I think I could have prevented it from happening...the last weekend I saw him I was not very hyper and in the mood to have fun, I had a bad week so I was kinda donw in the dumps and I think I made him mad. All I know is that I will contintu to pray and that I will always care for him and if he ever wants to try again I will drop everything and be there for him in half a heart beat! Because I still care and I cant believe that he doesnt. I wonder if there is another girl or if I was just a summer fling or maybe he got scared of his feelings and ran away from them. All I know is that I believe God put is together and I will never give up!