I can feel the coffee in my system. it's like an invading force, a poison. I can feel it navigating it's way through my body. Stupid idea, and i knew that at the time. Just another stupid decision in a long line of stupid decisons ( Read more... )

I lost the plot completely yesterday

3 red bulls, 1 large coffee and some fucking experimental jelly energy shot and i lost it.

I was barely able to control my phsyical shaking, i wanted to hit someone, and i wanted to scream.

As a consequence i am tired.

Not good.

grrr...... it's happening.

Was talked out of coffee this morning by coffee cart staff, Carita.

Have a severe pain in my neck.

PinkE is babbling crap about the Lion King musical constantly.

Urge to kill is rising...

It is once again morning.

I have come down from the coffee.

Do not think that repeating yesterdays coffee episode is a good idea.

Am thinking about delivering a letter to the coffee cart, requesting that they do NOT serve me coffee under any circumstances.

Drastic measures i know.

just doesn't taste like it should this morning. It tastes kind of watery. Maybe it's just losing it's affect. Maybe, it's time for a change. Coffee made with nicotine water, white, with two lumps of cocaine. HA HA HA HA HA HA

Dave took me for a coffee yesterday to see how I was, because I’d “been quiet and stuff, and I wanted to know if everything was alright ( Read more... )

No more coffee! I haven’t been this close to wanting to kill myself for a very long time. I blame the usual pressure and the addition of coffee ( Read more... )

Can honestly say that I did not devote much (any) brain power to Girl Inc today. Other than the times when I thought about bed, or saw this notepad.

A good day. Had a coffee :) I like to think it was worth it.

Noticed a desire for rock this afternoon. Decided that most of my music was terribly gay. This could be coffee related.

No coffee today. Girl Inc called me this afternoon to see if I was ok. Good timing, a little late but she kinda knew.

Being productive (outside of work) which is good, being productive at work might be an idea though.

Definitely not as paranoid or depressed as yesterday either. Will consider getting me a latte every couple of weeks. Hard to ( Read more... )