same old same old
hmmm not much has changed since the last time i updated. still have a crap load of classes... i'm up this early cuz i had MEL orchestra, but we only had half of it, so i got about 20 mins till theory... the girl situation... heh, there isn't one really. the girls i seem to be attracted to either don't want to or can't deal with commitment, are too busy, or just don't like me in the same way. or a combination of those. i'm workin orchestra camp for mr. b this weekend. it'll be a chance to get away from the whole college scene, back to those good ol days in high school, when i was the chubby asian kid in orchestra who everyone knew and liked :) my parents finally gave up on art van, and picked up another futon loft thing. bringin it up on sunday when i come back... so i'll finally have a bed and me and eric can finally start getttin our crap sorted out. gettin crap sorted out... i should work on that. i know i should figure on gettin my stuff together, being o.k. with being single. i mean i've done it for a hell of a long time before last year, so i know i can do it. but it's just it would be nice to have someone to hold, someone to be there, to need you, miss you, care about you, in a different way than friends do... something deeper, more real, for however long it lasts... and listening to "a plain morning" by dashboard confessional doesn't help this whole mood any :P ah well, so goes life.