garrrrr
well i don't want to be all fatalistic sounding so i won't... kel and eric are hooking up, or are hooked up. i saw it happening, and truthfully, i'm o.k. with it. it's kinda weird, and i have to hold myself from trying to "live vicariously" through eric... i.e. last night i wanted to go downtown so they could walk around, because i remember how much i liked it, how great it is to walk around with someone special, their hand in yours... yeah, well whatever. i hope they are happy and things work out for them, and eric already knows that if he hurts her i'm going to have to break him. so what's happening with me? i don't know really. something i thought was there, i am doubtful about, and something i thought was so sure... i screwed up by letting my emotions get the best of me. now, as much as i don't want to, it really seems the best thing to do would be to walk away and start over somewhere else. i've done what i could, i put my apology out there, whether it is accepted or if i'll ever start to regain what i feel that i've lost is another question. perhaps it's better this way, then i won't have to fight everytime i see her, it'll just be easier to know that she really can't stand me cuz i'm an asshole. ah well, everything works out how it's supposed to in the end. at least there's the michigan game to watch. GO BLUE!!!!