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[smileycrayons]

I had a dream
that I went back to the past
and tried to stop you.
I tried to save you.
I told you not to go,
that there are people
who love you
and that you still
have so much to give.
But you just shook your head,
smiling in apology.
I started crying
and I hugged you,
but when I did,
you were already gone.
A cold, lifeless body
was in my arms,
your shining soul elsewhere.
I hurt for you
because I know how it hurts.
It could have been me,
but I'm so grateful
that I'm still here.
There was a light ahead,
one I couldn't see
in the unbearable darkness
but now I'm surrounded by it.
And it'll never leave me.
My heart is open now
I'm always here and now,
feeling, hurting, growing, breathing,
living.
With so much love.
If only I could have told you
that you have the strength
to save yourself.
But I hope
you are in the light too.
A different kind of light,
in another world,
living on.
I think of you,
I cry for you,
and I love you;
that's how I feel.
I used to think
we were so different,
but maybe we weren't.
I'll never get to know
who you really were.
It's strange,
it's as if
You left this world
to go and live
in everyone's hearts.
If you were to read this
you'd be surprised
that me, of all people
is saying these things.
But that's how
not alone you were.
That's how loved you still are.
You may not have known it,
but you touched people,
even those who seemed
to be far away from you.
I will remember you.
Rest In Peace.
<3