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When you look at the stars
you're really looking
at the past.
And shooting stars
are just the sky
finally letting go
of what had gone
long before.
It was beautiful there.
Everything just
felt alive.
On the first night
it was as if
I was inside of my nightmare.
It was so foggy and dark.
And so I walked,
walked through my dream
and faced it.
The days following
were full of light,
wind, and joy.
It was fate
that brought us there
years ago.
Going back there
was like
we had never left.
It was always the place
that felt like home.
All the years we were there,
all the years we weren't there.
None of it mattered.
All those memories
live in that place
and in our hearts.
Letting it go this time
was easy.
Because I understood
Because I have now come
to understand
that you never really
lose anything.
If you are living
in the moment
You have no time
to wish you could go back.
It is in the past.
The past, while beautiful,
is like the night sky.
You take time to view it
and appreciate it
but when the night ends
but you have to move on.
This is what becoming an adult means.
Oh, how it haunted me.
Those nightmares.
Because I clung so tightly
onto a tragic memory.
I understand you now,
why you did what you did.
I forgive you, I really do.
All of the anger and hurt is gone,
just acceptance and understanding.
I forgive myself
for allowing the darkness in, too.
Reality is not good nor bad.
It is what you choose to make it.
It was hard
without you there.
But all of it
turned to ashes
then to smoke
Into the air
and into the water.
We sang on that dock
"I've never been so alone,
And I've never been so alive."
Learning to trust.
I was a child then.
A child who felt abandoned, alone, and unloved.
But 6 years later,
I love myself, and life.
I treasure the past but I don't try to live there.
I move towards the future but don't fear it.
I am here, now.
Back then
I blamed you for taking something away from me.
But I am now,
where I have all I need.
No one can take anything
away from me.
I accept things as they are,
and love myself as I am.
On that porch
in the candle light
I was alone
one last time.
My voice echoed
the notes and the melody.
It all brought me
to where I am.
The wind blowing through
the window curtains.
I used to dance
in your beaming sunlight.
Even when I wanted you near me
I wasn't lonely,
because there are no illusions in my mind.
Even when I felt something missing,
there were no empty spaces in my heart,
because I am whole.
One night,
the clouds let an opening,
showing the stars.
They are always there,
even when you can't see them.
They were there back then too,
when the moon's light
scared the stars away.
Everything was the same,
but I had changed.
Pain, grudges, loneliness,
all just fleeting emotions.
All that's left is love.
So much has happened.
I can't even begin to say
how these things
have changed me
opened my eyes
and healed my heart.
So much growth.
Because I decided to be strong.
Because I decided to love myself.
I have so much to offer,
and I am giving, going on.
Who I could be, who I will be.
I can do anything, I can go anywhere.
And I'm not afraid to fly anymore,
I'm not afraid to fall.
6 years later.
I'm finally at peace.
I'm finally free.
you're really looking
at the past.
And shooting stars
are just the sky
finally letting go
of what had gone
long before.
It was beautiful there.
Everything just
felt alive.
On the first night
it was as if
I was inside of my nightmare.
It was so foggy and dark.
And so I walked,
walked through my dream
and faced it.
The days following
were full of light,
wind, and joy.
It was fate
that brought us there
years ago.
Going back there
was like
we had never left.
It was always the place
that felt like home.
All the years we were there,
all the years we weren't there.
None of it mattered.
All those memories
live in that place
and in our hearts.
Letting it go this time
was easy.
Because I understood
Because I have now come
to understand
that you never really
lose anything.
If you are living
in the moment
You have no time
to wish you could go back.
It is in the past.
The past, while beautiful,
is like the night sky.
You take time to view it
and appreciate it
but when the night ends
but you have to move on.
This is what becoming an adult means.
Oh, how it haunted me.
Those nightmares.
Because I clung so tightly
onto a tragic memory.
I understand you now,
why you did what you did.
I forgive you, I really do.
All of the anger and hurt is gone,
just acceptance and understanding.
I forgive myself
for allowing the darkness in, too.
Reality is not good nor bad.
It is what you choose to make it.
It was hard
without you there.
But all of it
turned to ashes
then to smoke
Into the air
and into the water.
We sang on that dock
"I've never been so alone,
And I've never been so alive."
Learning to trust.
I was a child then.
A child who felt abandoned, alone, and unloved.
But 6 years later,
I love myself, and life.
I treasure the past but I don't try to live there.
I move towards the future but don't fear it.
I am here, now.
Back then
I blamed you for taking something away from me.
But I am now,
where I have all I need.
No one can take anything
away from me.
I accept things as they are,
and love myself as I am.
On that porch
in the candle light
I was alone
one last time.
My voice echoed
the notes and the melody.
It all brought me
to where I am.
The wind blowing through
the window curtains.
I used to dance
in your beaming sunlight.
Even when I wanted you near me
I wasn't lonely,
because there are no illusions in my mind.
Even when I felt something missing,
there were no empty spaces in my heart,
because I am whole.
One night,
the clouds let an opening,
showing the stars.
They are always there,
even when you can't see them.
They were there back then too,
when the moon's light
scared the stars away.
Everything was the same,
but I had changed.
Pain, grudges, loneliness,
all just fleeting emotions.
All that's left is love.
So much has happened.
I can't even begin to say
how these things
have changed me
opened my eyes
and healed my heart.
So much growth.
Because I decided to be strong.
Because I decided to love myself.
I have so much to offer,
and I am giving, going on.
Who I could be, who I will be.
I can do anything, I can go anywhere.
And I'm not afraid to fly anymore,
I'm not afraid to fall.
6 years later.
I'm finally at peace.
I'm finally free.