Yep
I want to cry, I don't know why, but I want to cry.
Ok, so I do know why, there are many things that I am just worried about, many other things that I want to change, just changing somethings will hurt some relationships. I don't know if I can deal with that, I just need to start relying on myself more again I think and just worry about my own goals and say screw everyone else every now and then. I don't want to, but I can't see any other way of me getting what I want out of life. As much as I want a steady relationship, that is hard to do when you love traveling and seeing new things all the time. Travel is not a friend of steady relationships. Oh well, I don't even have enough money to travel right now, I just need to get a second job so I can be working 50-60 hours a week again so I will have the money soon enough.
Ok, so I do know why, there are many things that I am just worried about, many other things that I want to change, just changing somethings will hurt some relationships. I don't know if I can deal with that, I just need to start relying on myself more again I think and just worry about my own goals and say screw everyone else every now and then. I don't want to, but I can't see any other way of me getting what I want out of life. As much as I want a steady relationship, that is hard to do when you love traveling and seeing new things all the time. Travel is not a friend of steady relationships. Oh well, I don't even have enough money to travel right now, I just need to get a second job so I can be working 50-60 hours a week again so I will have the money soon enough.