Oh gosh
I am actually kinda happy right now. I have a boyfriend who says he loves me, who I want to believe loves me, but that is a hard thing to do after how I have been hurt.
He is actually quite amazing, he likes all of my friends and they like him, which is rare.
If he half wakes up in the middle of the night or in the morning then he will turn over to me, cuddle with me and give me a bunch of kisses on my cheek or shoulder. I really do love that.
It is just hard for me to believe half the shit that he does or says because I know how easy it is to fake shit. I really want to believe it, I just can't let myself even get that close to someone to let them hurt me that bad again.
I am looking for another job because the one that I have is giving me hours that I can't even make enough to keep gas in my tank and food in my stomach. I am supposed to be paying 800 dollars a month too since my roommate doesn't have a job right now, hopefully she will soon. Hopefully I will have another soon as well.
Other then that life is peachy, I just need to figure out how much I want to be able to let him hurt me; Mentally when he leaves me, paranoid people like me; We all know it is going to happen.
He is actually quite amazing, he likes all of my friends and they like him, which is rare.
If he half wakes up in the middle of the night or in the morning then he will turn over to me, cuddle with me and give me a bunch of kisses on my cheek or shoulder. I really do love that.
It is just hard for me to believe half the shit that he does or says because I know how easy it is to fake shit. I really want to believe it, I just can't let myself even get that close to someone to let them hurt me that bad again.
I am looking for another job because the one that I have is giving me hours that I can't even make enough to keep gas in my tank and food in my stomach. I am supposed to be paying 800 dollars a month too since my roommate doesn't have a job right now, hopefully she will soon. Hopefully I will have another soon as well.
Other then that life is peachy, I just need to figure out how much I want to be able to let him hurt me; Mentally when he leaves me, paranoid people like me; We all know it is going to happen.