It was 5 years ago today that I had to say good bye to my mom.

Five years seems like nothing, and it hurts just as much now as it did then.

It still kills me that she wasn't there at my wedding or she will never see her grandchildren that she always promised me she would wind up on sugar and send them home to me.
It's wrong that she did not get to ( Read more... )

I'm still here...if anyone remembers this post from last month...we are still living in the same place, budgeted to the last penny and I am saving everything I can to pay for internet as my only expense. It sucks, it's hard and we are getting no help from anyone.

My dad can't help us because he is retired and doesn't have much money...and Dave's ( Read more... )

Fate looked down at the girl and smirked as she cried. "So you think your life is shit? Just wait I can make it so much worse..."

( Real life stuff, panicked and depressed babbling, feeling really sorry for myself, go ahead and skip it, I would if I could. )

Good-bye Foxycat you were the best friend I could have ever asked for.
You were an amazing girl that was loved by everyone and you will never be forgotten.


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My cat Fox has been very sick the last couple of weeks, so we took her to the vet today and she has advanced kidney disease. This was not a huge surprise since she is 18 yrs old but she won't be getting better, only worse...and all we can do is make her as comfortable as possible for now. The vet did not feel it was time to say good bye to her ( Read more... )

It was 4 years ago today that I had to say good bye to my mom.

Four years seems like nothing, and it hurts just as much now as it did then.

I bought my wedding dress yesterday and it still kills me that she will never see my wedding or her grandchildren that she always promised that she would wind up on sugar and send them home to me.
It's wrong that ( Read more... )

I know it's stupid but it always hurts when I get cut from someone's f-list, because I'm obviously that forgettable to them.

Today I am taking time to appreciate Alec, there's a lot of depressing maudlin shit I could be writing down and crying over, yesterday being Mother's Day and all; but instead I'd rather post this.

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Today would have been my mother's 60th birthday, if she had lived.

I woke up today, messing everything up so I decided to sit on the computer and watch some Supernatural/J2 YouTube vids; Supernatural and the boys tend to be the only things that can cheer me up. And I came across this one, by my fav vidder. Keepmeclose84

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It's 3 years ago today that I had to say good bye to my mom.

Three years seems like nothing,  and it hurts just as much now as it did then. But I lost her long before that.

My mom had cancer, it started as kidney cancer and moved to her lymphnodes...because it was missed on her scans. The tumor released a chemical that messed up her brain, she was ( Read more... )