forever and always.
I remember every look on your face.
I remember the way the world stood still the first time you kissed me.
I remember the way life seemed to begin the first time you held my hand.
I remember the way you kissed me when you got on that plane.
I remember the ecstatic feeling I had the first time you told me you loved me.
I remember the first time I laughed after you were gone. It made me cry, knowing life could move on.
I remember crying the first time I kissed someone else.
I remember worrying that I would forget you, because the hole you left was too much to bear.
I remember wanting so badly to tell you about my day, and knowing I just had to go home alone.
I remember how you used to encourage me to follow all my dreams, always telling me I could do anything.
I miss you. I miss all of that.
because when someone new tries to tell me that he likes me, all i can think about is would you have liked him? would you have been friends? if you were with me, what would you say about him? its hard to let myself try to feel anything like we had. though i can't seem to take my necklace off, i stopped wearing my ring. i can't hide behind it forever. i will slowly move on. I will slowly move towards a life without you around every corner, not seeing you in every room I walk into. I will remember what it was like to flirt and mean it with everything i have, instead of half-heartedly. I will try to remember what we had, and realize i can have that again, and that you'd be ok with that. You were always so sure that I was gonna have a fantastic life. I will miss that thought about us on a porch when we're old. we just had so many plans, i had sorta forgotten how many there were until he wanted to make plans too.
know that i will always love you. but that I'm trying to not hold on so much.
Maybe someday, i'll find someone who loved me like you did, whom I can love as much as I loved you. maybe someday soon. and until then, i'll keep trying.
I remember the way the world stood still the first time you kissed me.
I remember the way life seemed to begin the first time you held my hand.
I remember the way you kissed me when you got on that plane.
I remember the ecstatic feeling I had the first time you told me you loved me.
I remember the first time I laughed after you were gone. It made me cry, knowing life could move on.
I remember crying the first time I kissed someone else.
I remember worrying that I would forget you, because the hole you left was too much to bear.
I remember wanting so badly to tell you about my day, and knowing I just had to go home alone.
I remember how you used to encourage me to follow all my dreams, always telling me I could do anything.
I miss you. I miss all of that.
because when someone new tries to tell me that he likes me, all i can think about is would you have liked him? would you have been friends? if you were with me, what would you say about him? its hard to let myself try to feel anything like we had. though i can't seem to take my necklace off, i stopped wearing my ring. i can't hide behind it forever. i will slowly move on. I will slowly move towards a life without you around every corner, not seeing you in every room I walk into. I will remember what it was like to flirt and mean it with everything i have, instead of half-heartedly. I will try to remember what we had, and realize i can have that again, and that you'd be ok with that. You were always so sure that I was gonna have a fantastic life. I will miss that thought about us on a porch when we're old. we just had so many plans, i had sorta forgotten how many there were until he wanted to make plans too.
know that i will always love you. but that I'm trying to not hold on so much.
Maybe someday, i'll find someone who loved me like you did, whom I can love as much as I loved you. maybe someday soon. and until then, i'll keep trying.