a place to think
this is gonna b random cause i got so much running threw my head. i cant stand this stuff with the guys i like cuase like i like john and he care4s about me but we came to teh conclusion that we can not b together so ive turned my attention to someone ive been looking at for teh past 3 weeks from karate and his name is jay and i like alot and he makes me stammer with words i keep finding i stare at him and stuff and i look at him and he smiles at me and stuff... but i have found something i didnt plan one COLTAN it started at a side joke and tehn idk somthing just click and i get an adrenilin rush when ever i think about him even when i type this.
i guess im really fucked cause i like them both and i dont kno who i like more. ive even worked with coltan in jujitsu and weve been close to eachother and shit and we were realy good friends and stuff bfore i hurt my knee. i guess i like him and jay but i eally want a relationship that can be something i can be proud of. i like coltan alot and stuff and i he seems like he can be gay or bi cause bailey said something about hims wallowing and he didnt say nothing aginst it and then when i went to talk to him he was all blushed and stuff and i really wanted to say hey im bi, u can talk to me. but im afraid to i guess cause idk cause im still alittle afria di might scare him away if hes straight but i want him to trust me if he is bent so that he has someone to talk to or anything. i know if i had someone to talk to it would have made my life much better. but idk
im done
i guess im really fucked cause i like them both and i dont kno who i like more. ive even worked with coltan in jujitsu and weve been close to eachother and shit and we were realy good friends and stuff bfore i hurt my knee. i guess i like him and jay but i eally want a relationship that can be something i can be proud of. i like coltan alot and stuff and i he seems like he can be gay or bi cause bailey said something about hims wallowing and he didnt say nothing aginst it and then when i went to talk to him he was all blushed and stuff and i really wanted to say hey im bi, u can talk to me. but im afraid to i guess cause idk cause im still alittle afria di might scare him away if hes straight but i want him to trust me if he is bent so that he has someone to talk to or anything. i know if i had someone to talk to it would have made my life much better. but idk
im done