emo alone feeling

[sman326]

shit going bad with liz. i asked her if we could not be xcluisive so we could keep the tittle or being something to keep my mom and walter off my case. im crying which SUCKS ASS cause like i never cry and i just feel alone. i hate this!!!!! man i just feel empty like im alone in the world in a hole and everyone just walks around me.im FUCKING CRYING damn it. i never cry. im so afraid to loose her and in a way i think i should i mean she mean to me with shit she says like we watched cruel intentions 2 and the line was something like: "damn it men are such cheats it must be in thier genes." and she says :" so thats why ur such a great cheater its in ur genes."she knows that my dad cheats and shit and so when she said that i started to cry and eventually i stopped but now i just.... i just.... i just idk. im talking to kiki and she makes me feel better and stuff. man this hole not knowing how to talk to thise guy i like, his names mike. its starting to get to me. i mean hes hot and older and hes nice and cool and funny and like he skates and stuff and idk if hes flirting with me or just being nice and when i start to talk to him like an accual convo i start to trip on words and i stammer and i get shy( WOW ME SHY) and i feel over the toher day and he luaghed and i was like yea i def ment to do that.he was like sure u did. so idk i really wish i had someone that was gay in my o well idk
kiki and i are playing a game on yahoo so im going