pry this gun from my cold dead fingers....

[slitmythroatx]

ok soo i have nothing to do right now i am bored and i just woke up like 15 minutes ago. i wish that i actually was doing something right now worth my time. uhmm i have no clue what i want anymore as in means of me seeing other people, i mean i have been seeing other people but not dating wise. i still have the thought of me being without abby and that still sucks. i mean it doesn't suck its just that she was my first true love and its hard to get around that. fuck what to do and what to think about. i feel like shit alot i wish that i was never a piece of shit and did that shit to abby because that hurt me and definately hurt her along with the relationship that we had. uhmm today is my brothers birthday i am not sure if i want to be here though.. hmmm ok well i am just rambling on about stupid shit. ohh yeah abby if you want to talk to me sometime you can call me because i tried to say hi at walmart remember and you know the outcome of that soo its up to you to talk. i am still your friend and hopefully we could be best of friends sometime and maybe sometime later on we would work things out. i don't know but yeah give me a call or just come over all early and shit and wake we up and you can take me out for lunch hah.. ok well i will always have love for you and you know that. ok well see you sometime soon ok, bye..
sandra and static
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