hello lj... haven't seen you in a while... I'm confused about all these weddings... lol.. I myself am due to tie the knot and yet... I look around and think wow, we're just kids... big kids... do we really make good enough decisions at this time in life to make such a big one? god, we're like idiots... how can we take the leap? but I'll look at him ( Read more... )

so I'm all about this week.. please anyone who cares say a prayer I get this condo... it's beautiful!!!! I got a new job still at home depot... awesome... chris and I are talking again and it's good... real good... I'm just happy...

alive... I'm happier... not happy... happ-ier.
I'm thinking too much in my head about these happ-ier and happy differences.
Do I want this really? There's a little voice in my head and it's screaming at me.
I don't know if to believe it or not...

i am still here . im alive. weird things happening.

I have a panic attack waiting in my head... body .. anxiety... I feel trapped. I don't let it in and what goes in doesn't come out. Hurt? not really... numb more like it... I can't stop obsessing about moving... I want a home I want control.. somewhere to feel stable. I have a fleeting comfort... he's ignorant to it's help. I'm behind. I skip ( Read more... )

i hate where i am.

You scored as Dance. You should be a Dance major! Like a lithe ballerina, you dance because you believe there is beauty in expressing the physical form.

Dance
100%
Psychology
100%
Art
92%
English
83%
Philosophy
83%
Theater
83%
Journalism
83%
Sociology
83%
Anthropology
75%
Engineering
58%
Mathematics
50%
Linguistics
42%
Chemistry
0%
Biology
0%
What is your Perfect Major?
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merry christmas!

Happy birthday puppy.. ilove you and mark I'm so sorry... about not calling again last ngiht.. I want to wish you a happy birthday one more time... I hope you both have a good day..

The last couple weeks.. exhausting... I'm half up to where I need to be and half in the hole I'm still digging. tired. I have new things in life I need to share and some I can't and won't... I think I'm going to have to make some major changes... again. Think about what I do not feel about what I do I'm so impulsive. lol. Unhappy for all the wrong ( Read more... )