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The last couple weeks.. exhausting... I'm half up to where I need to be and half in the hole I'm still digging. tired. I have new things in life I need to share and some I can't and won't... I think I'm going to have to make some major changes... again. Think about what I do not feel about what I do I'm so impulsive. lol. Unhappy for all the wrong reasons... I screwed my meds up and all I can think is.. "is that why I feel like this" the answer probably a "err...yes." I am undoubtedly the most insecure person I know--quite frankly I can't find a more irritating way to test just how little I can become. Please can you put this much stress and this much lack of self-attentiveness (for lack of a better term) in a situation where I'm supposed to make a good decision? My head whirls around my body hoping to delve into something that might resemble sense. I'm confused wsn't this about me? Wasn't it about what I wanted? erg.