i dont know what i fucking want. i've had to make so many decisions lately why can't i just say i don't know. how can i prepare for college when i don't even know what i want to do yet? i do things i don't even enjoy for my parents and now it seems that i'm getting out of it but my burden is not lessening. i am just really really angry and ( Read more... )

current clothing: pink flannel pg bottmes with different sized circles *matches my bedspread* and maggie's green YORK shirt ( Read more... )

i have a new fear. i know, i'm not fearless, sorry to disappoint. besides my fear of needles (aka belonephobia that i will never get over) i know have scuffingalongcarpettouchingmetalphobia, aka i'm afraid of getting a static electricty shock. lately it's been killer man. i was in the dark scuffuing along in my big purple slippers and i went to ( Read more... )

BAD MONDAY BAD
the comfort food i ate when i got home since the spoiled milk ruined my lunch (cereal):

barrel red cabbage
crabmeat delights with cheese on triscuits
chicken nuggets
pecan apricot bread with butter
proscuitto
sushi
orange juiceeeeeeee
wheat thins
oreo
cookie with LOTS of frosting

i think i left some things out

boo. i dislike certainty at times. outside insider. i find i have a lot more friends monday-friday, 9:00-3:30 then during the rest of the week. it's really annoying. don't talk to me at school if you wouldn't hang out with me on the weekend. being rejected early last night reminded me of how things aren't the same. things are never the same ( Read more... )

ohh snow (kind of). 2 hour delays work for me, better than nothing. slammed with homework, it's insane. weekend was good. nothing like good ol' sleddin'. ok . . . so this whole napoleon dynamite stage-- kind of sick of it. jessi and i tried watching the movie last night but we fell asleep. like, it was so dumb. i laughed at very few parts ( Read more... )

i'm really tired of feeling average. like i used to excel at a lot of things and lately i've been slacking and letting everything go. new semester, new year, getting back in the swing of things. gymmin' it tomorrow, gotta start that darn soccer workout. watch, i won't make the team. i'm making thomas train with me so i can get back into the ( Read more... )

im having a fat day/week/month/year/decade.

well that sucked. i need to go to a movie, find a hot guy, and make out with him. tonight. that and the peanut butter silk pie i had should be the cure. needed a girls night but i guess i'm not getting one. a lot of people suck right now.

can i just say ER last night was riveting? abby being kidnapped and threatened by gunpoint to fix up CJ (this guy's brother who got shot) and i was just on the edge of my cot the whole time (spent the night at who else's house than jessi's). i'm a loser but that show rocks. anyway, long weekend. woop. kelly *my bitch* is going to come with me ( Read more... )