I have lost focus ): I should be writing my HP essay now (even though I do have a topic, and 800 words isn't a researchable length) and I just wrote little snippets of fic but the words are all coming out wrong.

Anyway, since I have time, and I'm going to be here a while.

I don't even know how to begin. The people? The school? The class? The CCA/ ( Read more... )

So many ways to take that, I suppose, even though today gave me more hope than I thought possible. There is a glimmer of - we are going somewhere. After today, I feel like I can invite people to watch without feeling guilty about having ripped them off of $5 or even $10, but then again I'm afraid that we'll lose whatever scant magic we held in the ( Read more... )

Fuck all this. All this. All of it. I don't think we should ever have spoken, thank you very much. Not from the very beginning maybe I would have been better off in squash or something. (No, not really.) I hate it when I disapprove of myself, when I don't like me. I don't like myself when it comes to you did you know that I guess not ( Read more... )

My head's so full of things that I don't even know where to start - sometimes it scares me that I function like this, under 30,000 feet of undersea pressure with things pressing in left and right and maybe I don't function very well, but at least I have purposes, and I was just reading Newsweek over dinner at 9.30 pm and there was an article on ( Read more... )

Where nothing really mattered except for me to be with you
But in time we all forgot and we all grew

I think - I'm happy.

It's kind of a strange feeling, considering the general angst of teenagehood and life in general, and the rhetorical whining, but I suspect I am. I mean, school in general still 'sucks', whatever that means (I've a feeling the ( Read more... )