at one point i thought the abyss was without end - a perpetual descent into darkness. then i bounced off some rocks and landed in the river. that's where it ends. either you give in to the torrents and drown, or you struggle and reach for something to grasp onto and pull yourself up and out of those cold waters. now i am standing on the shore ( Read more... )

i have felt restrained, of late. i have always felt it, to some extent. that if i were to give up all i feel and experience and think, but especially feel, that it would be too much for anyone to deal with. apparently it's a pisces moon thing. but i read between the lines. i see how people react to me. i feel the pulling away and the rejection ( Read more... )

updated my music page: http://www.soundclick.com/skulkeyRead more... )

i think that part of it is that i have a really hard time saying no to someone who needs my help, even if it means sacrificing a chunk of my energy. i don't know...

how fucked is it that now that i've left my job and signed up for a class that i'm finally getting offered the shift i asked for months ago? i'm even being offered part time.

and how fucked is it that i'm actually considering it?

pelican - "city of echoes"
fucking brilliant. seriously. how these guys can still break new ground is beyond me. truly inspiring...

rasputina - "oh perilous world"
always good. lots of mandolin added to the cellos...

jesu - "conqueror"
wow. justin is my hero...

neurosis - "given to the rising ( Read more... )

we are schroedinger's cats, every one of us...

we got FIOS, so i am cruzing and wireless.

many images uploaded to skulkey.deviantart.com and many more to come. prints are now enabled. let me know if there's anything else you'd like to see, alternate versions, color schemes, etc.

gleam part II is in the works. basically three more tracks that were composed around the same time, but i never ( Read more... )

i put it my two weeks notice on monday. i don't have another job lined up, but i have a plan. i'll collect my retirement and use part of it to pay for a CNA course at the Red Cross, and expenses until i find a job doing that kind of thing. there's tons of postings for CNAs and HHAs, and i've been told by nurses that i should get into that line ( Read more... )

first image is on.

skulkey.deviantart.com

i'll be focusing on most recent for now.
once i get hooked up with broadband i'll
start uploading as much as i can. i'll
also make prints available at that time,
which will hopefully be by the end of
this month.

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