wassbenup...
at one point i thought the abyss was without end - a perpetual descent into darkness. then i bounced off some rocks and landed in the river. that's where it ends. either you give in to the torrents and drown, or you struggle and reach for something to grasp onto and pull yourself up and out of those cold waters. now i am standing on the shore with a long and treacherous climb ahead before i can bask in the light again. if you are a christian, then know that i walk in the valley of the shadow of death. this is the long dark night of the soul. pray for me, for i have forgotten how. my words are hollow, my heart is empty. i am a ghost, watching the living go on with their lives.
i just had to sell one of my beautiful guitars to pay a bill. even then it was only a portion of was i actually owe. my creditors are really pissed at me right now, but i can't really think about it. it's hard enough getting out of bed. i always feel like i'm walking through quicksand.
i have an appointment to see a counselor on friday. dunno how much it will help, but i've tried to fix myself a thousand times and failed miserably. so...
i just had to sell one of my beautiful guitars to pay a bill. even then it was only a portion of was i actually owe. my creditors are really pissed at me right now, but i can't really think about it. it's hard enough getting out of bed. i always feel like i'm walking through quicksand.
i have an appointment to see a counselor on friday. dunno how much it will help, but i've tried to fix myself a thousand times and failed miserably. so...