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So I started talking to this person who kind of caught my eye a long time ago. Turns out this person is awesome beyond anything I could have imagined. She has spent so much of her time working with non profit groups for transgender groups (yes, she is and has always been a woman, fucktards) and other groups she has respect for. She has inspired me to stop talking about things that I believe in and start ACTING on things I believe in.
We have been talking and spending alot of time together. I know that she doesn't want the kind of relationship I do and I'm not going to settle for less then what I want. I think it's good that we will never go beyond that limit anyways, because shes awesome and it seems that as soon as a relationship starts for me, it always ends, and the woman always ends up hating me. I would rather keep her in my life. She has been an insperation.
I still miss Jessica. This is a cold hard fact. The fact that she started talking to an ex of hers as soon as I was out of the picture pretty much kills me, only I refuse to go back to eating sleeping pills, hopeing never to wake up. I'm there mentally, it's hard as shit for me to keep that act up, but I refuse to kill myself until I record music.
I miss her like crazy. I wish things could have been different. I wish she would at least talk to me. I wish she fucking missed me just a little when I was gone.
We have been talking and spending alot of time together. I know that she doesn't want the kind of relationship I do and I'm not going to settle for less then what I want. I think it's good that we will never go beyond that limit anyways, because shes awesome and it seems that as soon as a relationship starts for me, it always ends, and the woman always ends up hating me. I would rather keep her in my life. She has been an insperation.
I still miss Jessica. This is a cold hard fact. The fact that she started talking to an ex of hers as soon as I was out of the picture pretty much kills me, only I refuse to go back to eating sleeping pills, hopeing never to wake up. I'm there mentally, it's hard as shit for me to keep that act up, but I refuse to kill myself until I record music.
I miss her like crazy. I wish things could have been different. I wish she would at least talk to me. I wish she fucking missed me just a little when I was gone.