Changes
I've been making some big changes in my lifestyle.
Last week I started the process of going Vegan. I haven't had any meat or dairy in a little under a week now. The only thing I miss is cooked tuna rolls from Cafe Mimosa. I know I'm going to cheat once and a while and eat one.
I've started talking to a woman I used to gock at for a while. A huge feminist that I always thought was a lesbian. Well... I was half right on that assumtion. Turns out she was kind of interested in me as well. She admits that I am nothing like what she usually looks for (and it's been a while since she has been in a relationship with a man) but she says she has feelings for me and I would be lying if I said I didnt have any for her.
She has been a big insperation for me. Even if nothing comes of this, we will remain friends.
This brings me to a big problem. I am remaining focused on my past, but I still miss Jessica and what we could have had. This girl, I highly doubt will ever want things like marriage. I'm not really concerned with that right now because we are taking things REAL slow and aren't even "dating" right now although we have spent a great deal of time together.
I still miss Jessica very much and I'm still hurting over the fact that to her, it seems that losing me and what we could have had was nothing and I was easily replaced by another. Maybe someone she has wanted back in her life for a long time.
I was told to never talk to her again. I won't.
I am becoming someone new. Strong. Motivated.
I have things to focus on, look forward to, and think about, but I still get sad when I see a girl wearing a hoodie she owned. I still get sad listening to The Evens first LP. I still get a little bummed out when I go home. I really need to mail her her mail but to be honest, I am broke. DEAD broke.
I don't know what to do or think when it comes to my heart.
Last week I started the process of going Vegan. I haven't had any meat or dairy in a little under a week now. The only thing I miss is cooked tuna rolls from Cafe Mimosa. I know I'm going to cheat once and a while and eat one.
I've started talking to a woman I used to gock at for a while. A huge feminist that I always thought was a lesbian. Well... I was half right on that assumtion. Turns out she was kind of interested in me as well. She admits that I am nothing like what she usually looks for (and it's been a while since she has been in a relationship with a man) but she says she has feelings for me and I would be lying if I said I didnt have any for her.
She has been a big insperation for me. Even if nothing comes of this, we will remain friends.
This brings me to a big problem. I am remaining focused on my past, but I still miss Jessica and what we could have had. This girl, I highly doubt will ever want things like marriage. I'm not really concerned with that right now because we are taking things REAL slow and aren't even "dating" right now although we have spent a great deal of time together.
I still miss Jessica very much and I'm still hurting over the fact that to her, it seems that losing me and what we could have had was nothing and I was easily replaced by another. Maybe someone she has wanted back in her life for a long time.
I was told to never talk to her again. I won't.
I am becoming someone new. Strong. Motivated.
I have things to focus on, look forward to, and think about, but I still get sad when I see a girl wearing a hoodie she owned. I still get sad listening to The Evens first LP. I still get a little bummed out when I go home. I really need to mail her her mail but to be honest, I am broke. DEAD broke.
I don't know what to do or think when it comes to my heart.