Love
Over a month later and Jim and I are still together. Things are going very well between us, in fact we have been exclusive since my last post and have said the “L” word! Jim is still really great, he appreciates me so much and tells me so all the time. We feel like high school boyfriend/girlfriends. We talk on the phone every night (in fact Jim hates it if one day goes by without me talking to him); send cards to each other, buy little gifts, and I love to wear his things, like his sweatshirt or the Rickenbacker guitar pin I got for him. I have been spending the entire weekends with him since my last post (accept for one) and my fears of us getting on each other’s nerves proved to be groundless. We don’t spend every second together and we enjoy all the time we do spend with each other. When it gets warmer and Jim gets his motorcycle out, he says he will come over during the week - yay! Yesterday I learned how to ride Jim’s mini trail bike! Yeah, it’s small but I doubted whether I would be able to ride it at all as I am not the most coordinated person. But, I was able to drive it slowly up and down the driveway and next time I’m sure I’ll get up the nerve to go a bit faster. I felt really good about myself being able to do something completely new.
Despite things going so well, it is kind of hard for me to accept the fact that Jim loves me, because of my own issues, but as time goes on and he does nothing to prove otherwise, I am believing it more and more.
Despite things going so well, it is kind of hard for me to accept the fact that Jim loves me, because of my own issues, but as time goes on and he does nothing to prove otherwise, I am believing it more and more.