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Turns out writing an email that I didn't even send made me feel a whole lot better. Just getting it all out in an articulate way, forcing myself to form complete sentences and throwing in as many fucks as necessary to convey how I feel.
I breath a big sigh of relief. It's also nice to have some sunny days and a new-to-me sweatshirt that I love.
Phoenix is finger painting right now next to me and I feel like I ought to move further away unless I want blue splatters on the screen.
So breathing, also, Jules and I have been spending the evenings lying in bed talking and watching dharma & greg. He always made fun of me cause I own the first season, now he loves them as much as I do, hehehe. But the evenings after lunches are made and the little boy is in bed has become so special to me, we exchanged sinus massage for a neck massage last night and I felt so relaxed.
I start symptamology this week and did most of the reading already, including the massive chapter on stress and took some of it's advice. I have way to much stress/adrenaline in my system. I took phoenix to the park yesterday so I could runaround. Physical exertion, I need more then I get.
I took a resume to the mission Health food store yesterday. I so hope she wants to hire me, I have ALWAYS wanted to work there. and I need a job, actually I already have a job taking care of Phoenix. I need money.
I breath a big sigh of relief. It's also nice to have some sunny days and a new-to-me sweatshirt that I love.
Phoenix is finger painting right now next to me and I feel like I ought to move further away unless I want blue splatters on the screen.
So breathing, also, Jules and I have been spending the evenings lying in bed talking and watching dharma & greg. He always made fun of me cause I own the first season, now he loves them as much as I do, hehehe. But the evenings after lunches are made and the little boy is in bed has become so special to me, we exchanged sinus massage for a neck massage last night and I felt so relaxed.
I start symptamology this week and did most of the reading already, including the massive chapter on stress and took some of it's advice. I have way to much stress/adrenaline in my system. I took phoenix to the park yesterday so I could runaround. Physical exertion, I need more then I get.
I took a resume to the mission Health food store yesterday. I so hope she wants to hire me, I have ALWAYS wanted to work there. and I need a job, actually I already have a job taking care of Phoenix. I need money.