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the crystal barn has me brainwashed, i have decided. its really really bad, and embarassing, but theres no other explanation for me working there tonight instead of going to see al green. and its the reason i stayed for so long. everyone who i talked about it with always told me to quit and i couldn't, and i can't blow it off tonight, and its ridiculous. but its al green!!! the reverend himself. two years ago i missed the opportunity to see james brown and then he died... so basically i can't miss this. but im going to go into work anyways. ughhhh
im a wimp and i hate it.
anyways. i have found a new place to work and the hours will be flexible and i will learn how to cook healthy food and how to take off time when i need it and not put myself in such stressful situations. i do this to myself alot- even not with work. i know something is coming up and i know if i don't prepare myself it will end in a train wreck and some how i am able to self sabotage and not prepare anyways so things don't end up going as well as they could.
wow. for complaining so much about everything, i really do like my life right now. everything will work out fine, like it always does, and i have tons of support from everyone so its all good. even my family has been chill lately.
im a wimp and i hate it.
anyways. i have found a new place to work and the hours will be flexible and i will learn how to cook healthy food and how to take off time when i need it and not put myself in such stressful situations. i do this to myself alot- even not with work. i know something is coming up and i know if i don't prepare myself it will end in a train wreck and some how i am able to self sabotage and not prepare anyways so things don't end up going as well as they could.
wow. for complaining so much about everything, i really do like my life right now. everything will work out fine, like it always does, and i have tons of support from everyone so its all good. even my family has been chill lately.