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how do people figure out how to not do too much? there are so many things going on all the time, and i do as much as i can until i realize i have no idea where im going or what is most important. then things get messed up and i feel like a jerk. i need to learn to say no, that is what has to happen.
i feel really bad... its probably not supposed to be this way and my boss shouldn't make me feel guilty for quitting but she did. she said after all the time she spent training me she expected me to stay longer and that one sorry isn't good enough and "i guess it doesn't pay to be nice". it sucks, i don't like that i have to end relationships on that note. on the other hand, i stayed there too long as it is. what i should have done is not trained as a server and just quit forever ago, but i didn't stop and think far enough ahead.
and now i have to choose between two new jobs, which is another whole headache. i got a job at Hyjea in penfield... perfect, right? i can walk there, its healthy, i would work mon-fri from 10 until 2 or 3 in the afternoon. dream job. then my cousin calls and asks me to take a job babysitting. i hate babysitting! i stopped a long time ago and got a real job cuz i didn't like it. the thing is, i will get paid $10/hour or more, it will be a flexible schedule and i can work more or less depending on my schedule for the week. she said she can give me at least 20 hours a week (mostly during the day), a night or two if im free, contacts for other families in the area, and i can continue doing it in the fall as my schedule allows. hyjea will be just a summer thing.
bahhhh.
i feel really bad... its probably not supposed to be this way and my boss shouldn't make me feel guilty for quitting but she did. she said after all the time she spent training me she expected me to stay longer and that one sorry isn't good enough and "i guess it doesn't pay to be nice". it sucks, i don't like that i have to end relationships on that note. on the other hand, i stayed there too long as it is. what i should have done is not trained as a server and just quit forever ago, but i didn't stop and think far enough ahead.
and now i have to choose between two new jobs, which is another whole headache. i got a job at Hyjea in penfield... perfect, right? i can walk there, its healthy, i would work mon-fri from 10 until 2 or 3 in the afternoon. dream job. then my cousin calls and asks me to take a job babysitting. i hate babysitting! i stopped a long time ago and got a real job cuz i didn't like it. the thing is, i will get paid $10/hour or more, it will be a flexible schedule and i can work more or less depending on my schedule for the week. she said she can give me at least 20 hours a week (mostly during the day), a night or two if im free, contacts for other families in the area, and i can continue doing it in the fall as my schedule allows. hyjea will be just a summer thing.
bahhhh.