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i've only been up for a few hours and it feels like an eternity. time seems to drag. every hour seems like a year. i just dont know how to cope anymore. I feel so alone. abandoned. forgotten. I read something yesterday that said people contemplate suicide when their burdens seem to out weigh their support structure. i have no support structure. i have been shouldering my burdens alone for as long as i can remember. but i always had people i could talk to. people that would be there for me, even if it was just out of obligation. now i have alienated all of those people. i am no truly alone. my burdens crushing down on me. i feel like Atlas, the weight of the world on my shoulders. only im not that strong. i dont think i can do this for very much longer. i need help. someone help me!