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i stood in the shower, scalding water pouring over me like i'm trying to burn away my sins. all i can do anymore is think about the past and how i would do things differently. if i could change just a hand full of things my life would be so much better right now. at least i would like to think so. i try so hard to hold on to hope. i want to hope. i want to have faith in things i once trusted. i want to feel like i matter once more. until then i will just sit alone and try to cling to hope... its all i have right now...