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I had fitful sleep last night at best. i would wake up in a cold sweat, heart racing. nightmares. then there were the periods of being wide awake because my thoughts wouldn't let me fall asleep. i just dont know which way to turn. my past is full of regrets and bad decisions, my present is full of uncertanty, and the path im on right now my future looks nothing but bleak. so where then do i turn. do i fight through my present or power through my future? or perhaps lament my past? or should i just bury my head in the sand and pretend like none of this is happening at all.
God and i have not been on speaking terms for a long long time. I prayed last night. I asked for guidance, for a sign. I am just so uncertain about everything right now that i need something to believe in. i need something stable in my life when everything is in upheaval. It was late last night right before i went to bed. i hope that at some point today i will get my sign so i know which direction i should go.
God and i have not been on speaking terms for a long long time. I prayed last night. I asked for guidance, for a sign. I am just so uncertain about everything right now that i need something to believe in. i need something stable in my life when everything is in upheaval. It was late last night right before i went to bed. i hope that at some point today i will get my sign so i know which direction i should go.