brain dump...
I feel like crap. For several reasons...
Life has been a roller coaster ride for the past several months. It may finally be starting to level out.
Had to make a decision for my mental health that sorta fucked me over financially, so money is really tight. I dropped out of school this semester, with every intention of picking it back up in the spring semester. Unfortunately - I have to pay back one class out of pocket and I can't pay it all at once. So, I'm on an unofficial payment plan. But I can't register for classes until there is a zero balance. Which won't happen in time for spring semester. Sucky.
I've just started a new schedule at work, working 10am-7pm. I haven't been able to run or work out all week because of it. And since fest ended, I've been gaining weight. I really need to develop a work out routine, because it's been pointed out to me I'm happier when I'm physically active. I just asked Brian to help me get up before he leaves for work so I can work out before I go to work.
And my skin is having issues, some is drying out (hands and legs) and my face is breaking out. This is due to weather and stress... so now I need to come up with a "beauty routine" as well so I take better care of my skin, especially with winter coming up.
Also, I'm becoming a recluse again. This time of year is always hard on me emotionally. Just getting done with being overactive and outside a lot at Fest., and now I have to deal with being inside more and less sunlight. Less sunlight is hard as it fucks with my head (yay SAD!) and also makes my insomnia (and related conditions) worse. As much as I am anti-tanning, my gym has a tanning bed I may use in short incriments to see if it helps some.
So, with finances/school stressing me out, my skin breaking out and me gaining weight... I feel really shitty about myself...
And I'm allowing it... temporarily.
I'm being proactive and trying to fix my issues, but today I'm letting myself feel shitty... and possibly through the weekend. But not longer than that. By Monday, new routines better be in place!
Some other things are tumbling around in my head... but those are for another day... or are not for public consumption.
Just venting and itemizing my issues with my life. Bear with me.
Life has been a roller coaster ride for the past several months. It may finally be starting to level out.
Had to make a decision for my mental health that sorta fucked me over financially, so money is really tight. I dropped out of school this semester, with every intention of picking it back up in the spring semester. Unfortunately - I have to pay back one class out of pocket and I can't pay it all at once. So, I'm on an unofficial payment plan. But I can't register for classes until there is a zero balance. Which won't happen in time for spring semester. Sucky.
I've just started a new schedule at work, working 10am-7pm. I haven't been able to run or work out all week because of it. And since fest ended, I've been gaining weight. I really need to develop a work out routine, because it's been pointed out to me I'm happier when I'm physically active. I just asked Brian to help me get up before he leaves for work so I can work out before I go to work.
And my skin is having issues, some is drying out (hands and legs) and my face is breaking out. This is due to weather and stress... so now I need to come up with a "beauty routine" as well so I take better care of my skin, especially with winter coming up.
Also, I'm becoming a recluse again. This time of year is always hard on me emotionally. Just getting done with being overactive and outside a lot at Fest., and now I have to deal with being inside more and less sunlight. Less sunlight is hard as it fucks with my head (yay SAD!) and also makes my insomnia (and related conditions) worse. As much as I am anti-tanning, my gym has a tanning bed I may use in short incriments to see if it helps some.
So, with finances/school stressing me out, my skin breaking out and me gaining weight... I feel really shitty about myself...
And I'm allowing it... temporarily.
I'm being proactive and trying to fix my issues, but today I'm letting myself feel shitty... and possibly through the weekend. But not longer than that. By Monday, new routines better be in place!
Some other things are tumbling around in my head... but those are for another day... or are not for public consumption.
Just venting and itemizing my issues with my life. Bear with me.