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[sk8erchic1778]

i talked to her last night. she called me at midnight and asked me if i was mad at her. i told her i was mad that she didnt tell me she was getting engaged. we have an agreement where we dont talk about other people we might be talking to but thats kind of a big thing to not tell me. thats what i told her. thankfully, she isnt getting engaged but i guess they are trying to work things out. she said eventually they might get back together. she apologized for not telling me. so things are good between us now but we still need to talk more about whats up between us. maybe if things get more serious between me and her, she wont get married. but thats where i get indecisive...i dont know if thats what i want. i dont want to hear about all her bullshit with her guys because it makes me kinda jealous. this makes me want her to myself, ya know? but when we are together, just the two of us, i hold back sometimes without even realizing it. this makes me think that i dont want to be with her...i dunno....i need to hang out with her some more and see where it goes. i need to figure things out though and soon.

i cant wait for my package to get here...i need a release.