In trying to create a simple and informal night to be social with my friends....Instead with I have created with it's utter social failure, a gigantic mental roadblock ( Read more... )

Are antler Moose, large Sharks, and Responsibility.

I knew about the first two for a long long time. The last one, I found out about in the last day and a half of wandering thoughts that don't seem to want to wander away from me.

This definitely explains why I thought it was possible I was afraid of success.
It's really just a fear of all things ( Read more... )

Last two days have been groovy as hell, right up until today.
Woke up late, talked to my dad which made me led me to talk to my parents about my younger brother, the amazing invisible hippy. Which leads to incredible stress because my parents are out of options and can't get a leg up because he's not here and he won't contact us.
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So wish I could organize a potluck tonight... Just call up every one I know and have every one bring one dish. God I would be so happy if that came together.
But I'm not willing to wait for another day or week. Hanker'n for today.
Also it would be nice if I made cookies or a pie. Pie is great. Haven't had it for a while.

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The WEIGHT! The WEIGHT! My shoulders, so very heavy. God dammit I think I need to draw some more explanation excuses comics.
I swear I must have aged 3 times the norm in the last six months. Even more so the last week.
Geesh and I can't wait for the Dante head to arrive. The artist is supposed to be sending it to the U.S next week, hopefully EARLY ( Read more... )

Hoping to get back on track in the next six months. Now if only I could start doing that instead of sitting at the computer.

Also I carved a msd sized boken/wooden practice sword. Would any one be interested in buying it for like 7 bucks or something?

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I do not recall ever being so down hearted about this particular subject. I quite literally and figuratively have no one left to hate or blame. The only person left is myself. It doesn't help that my periods the last 5 months have started affecting my emotions.
Doubts + Girly time= Suck

The only things that give me comfort are that if I think about ( Read more... )

There are so many dolls that I want to turn in to the manga Vagabond version of Musashi Miyamoto (at age 20) that I'm stupifyied.
Also I've been thinking, since Musashi is usually taken online as far as nicks go (in part due to fucking pokemon. I hate you pokemon.) I was thinking of changing my online nick to Kazuko, and if thats taken then Kazuko ( Read more... )

I finally finished the wing zero custom 1/100th model that I stole Argos's wings for. He is so noble looking. Gundams really are like the armor that knights of the future would wear. (metaphorically) And I took some pictures of him giving up his wings to my little Android. But Argos is a good boy. The only things he wants out of existence are ( Read more... )

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