crying out loud..im crying out loud...
okay so i just got home from hanging out with melia and bower:)..i had fun..we went to pizza hut, then to hyvee to visit kelly and freakin bower bought SIX POUNDS of candy!..i was like holy shit! lol..anyways..then we went to the park and i called my house, and my sister answered, and said that she wouldnt recommend asking mom if i could stay out later because kenny was throwing a fit about me being gone..so i didnt ask so i waited like 15 minutes, and then they took me home..well i walked in and my mom informed me that kenny is being an asshole (as usual) and he is making my mom get rid of our extra phone line and the internet TOMORROW!..and im like freaking out! how am i supposed to talk to melia if they take away the internet:'(..im so pissed off and upset..but she is gonna try to talk him into giving me and my sister a month to get a job before he gets rid of it..hopefully it'll work..otherwise we are without the net til july:(..
anyways..melia told me tonight that her mom wants me to live with them:)..that made me feel good..i want her mom to like me..and apparently she does:)..i guess melia told her about why she hates my stepdad, and her mom said that..:)..it makes me happy..yet sad..because i wish i could go now..but i have to wait a whole year til i graduate:(..i dont know if i can survive another year in this house..is it bad that i want my stepdad to die?:(...idk..idc anymore..people who know me really well..like melia and my other close friends know exactly how he is..and he deserves to die..in my eyes anyway..i know..cruel..but he's equally cruel to me..but in different ways...anyways..im gonna go..melia just got back home so im gonna talk to her:)
much love♥
anyways..melia told me tonight that her mom wants me to live with them:)..that made me feel good..i want her mom to like me..and apparently she does:)..i guess melia told her about why she hates my stepdad, and her mom said that..:)..it makes me happy..yet sad..because i wish i could go now..but i have to wait a whole year til i graduate:(..i dont know if i can survive another year in this house..is it bad that i want my stepdad to die?:(...idk..idc anymore..people who know me really well..like melia and my other close friends know exactly how he is..and he deserves to die..in my eyes anyway..i know..cruel..but he's equally cruel to me..but in different ways...anyways..im gonna go..melia just got back home so im gonna talk to her:)
much love♥