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2012 is coming to an end and I honestly couldn't be happier. Granted I was hoping the world apocalypse would actually happen because I'm sure the next few years will instill just absolute chaos. I can't believe people are taking out their anger and hatred on children. I thought the world was sick before, but now it's just getting worse. I just keep praying that my loved ones are doing alright and that things will start getting better. Sometimes you just have to have a little faith.
I finished up my third semester of college. I believe I now have my associates degree in applied health science. Thank god. Now I'm even closer to the nursing program. Just have to take A&P again and I will have everything done except for Pathophysiology and my clinicals. I am really within a year away from my RN. Granted, I still have the college wait-list, I am just almost there. I am finally proud of what I achieved. I didn't need anyone to hold my hand. I did this on my own. And I know I can go a lot further on my own as well. Life in that aspect is awesome.
Granted, it still gets lonely. I really feel like my friendships are going awry. Out of sight, out of mind. I guess it wouldn't
affect me so much is if I didn't care or think about these people as much as I do. It just hurts, but it's life, right? This is the time where we all go separate ways and find our own paths in life. I just didn't think it would be so soon. I wish everyone the best in their own adventures.
As for my love life. And good lord I can't stop smiling ear to ear. This man makes me feel beautiful. Even if I woke up looking haggard as hell, have god-awful morning breath, and I had nightmares all night. That morning cup a coffee he makes and brings to me is the best coffee in my life. That good night kiss only taste sweeter when I can wake up and receive another one. My nights snuggled up next to him are more comfortable than any 12 hour consecutive sleep. He didn't lie about love at first sight. And to be completely honest, I wasn't sure if I had believed him when he mentioned it. But the way I felt then to how I feel now has just grown immensely. Them butterflies are going to kill me one day. Hell, I think our chemistry will get the best of us. I've never met a man who fell in love with me for my whole being. And I feel bad gloating about it but he loves everything about me. My good days, my bad days, how my brain works, my actual intelligence, the fact we can stay up till 6 a.m. and just talk about anything and everything. He doesn't judge me, I love that the most. I have told him everything, and he doesn't go through my phone, he doesn't interrogate who I hang out with and why, he treats me like a person. He respects me. And I need that. I need someone to be there through my rough times and give me a glimpse of hope. He told me that no one has ever made him feel calm or relaxed like I do. I'm glad that I can do the same. I told him that I honestly hope the world would end yesterday. He told me he didn't. Of course I asked why and he said "Because it doesn't give me enough time. I finally found what I've been looking for and if the world ends, I can't take this relationship and run with it the way I want to. This is really a beautiful thing." I just hope that down the road, these feelings stay the same. So far so good, but it's a day by day process. This man has changed my life. And I honestly couldn't be happier.
I finished up my third semester of college. I believe I now have my associates degree in applied health science. Thank god. Now I'm even closer to the nursing program. Just have to take A&P again and I will have everything done except for Pathophysiology and my clinicals. I am really within a year away from my RN. Granted, I still have the college wait-list, I am just almost there. I am finally proud of what I achieved. I didn't need anyone to hold my hand. I did this on my own. And I know I can go a lot further on my own as well. Life in that aspect is awesome.
Granted, it still gets lonely. I really feel like my friendships are going awry. Out of sight, out of mind. I guess it wouldn't
affect me so much is if I didn't care or think about these people as much as I do. It just hurts, but it's life, right? This is the time where we all go separate ways and find our own paths in life. I just didn't think it would be so soon. I wish everyone the best in their own adventures.
As for my love life. And good lord I can't stop smiling ear to ear. This man makes me feel beautiful. Even if I woke up looking haggard as hell, have god-awful morning breath, and I had nightmares all night. That morning cup a coffee he makes and brings to me is the best coffee in my life. That good night kiss only taste sweeter when I can wake up and receive another one. My nights snuggled up next to him are more comfortable than any 12 hour consecutive sleep. He didn't lie about love at first sight. And to be completely honest, I wasn't sure if I had believed him when he mentioned it. But the way I felt then to how I feel now has just grown immensely. Them butterflies are going to kill me one day. Hell, I think our chemistry will get the best of us. I've never met a man who fell in love with me for my whole being. And I feel bad gloating about it but he loves everything about me. My good days, my bad days, how my brain works, my actual intelligence, the fact we can stay up till 6 a.m. and just talk about anything and everything. He doesn't judge me, I love that the most. I have told him everything, and he doesn't go through my phone, he doesn't interrogate who I hang out with and why, he treats me like a person. He respects me. And I need that. I need someone to be there through my rough times and give me a glimpse of hope. He told me that no one has ever made him feel calm or relaxed like I do. I'm glad that I can do the same. I told him that I honestly hope the world would end yesterday. He told me he didn't. Of course I asked why and he said "Because it doesn't give me enough time. I finally found what I've been looking for and if the world ends, I can't take this relationship and run with it the way I want to. This is really a beautiful thing." I just hope that down the road, these feelings stay the same. So far so good, but it's a day by day process. This man has changed my life. And I honestly couldn't be happier.