I'm starting to feel like a whirlwind is spinning through my head.
When is it ever too much? I can't seem to bring myself to get close to anyone because of everything that has happened last year. I had a friend point out that my type of men are the ones who are alcoholics, drug abusers, and cheaters. And it's true. I seem to want to feel sorry for them and feel like I can help them. And what do they do? Mistake my kindness for a weakness and use and abuse me. But I'm working on that. I got my test results back and I am clean. Unfortunately my pap is abnormal. Hopefully it will correct itself by next year. If not, i'm going to pray it's not cervical cancer. It's too real of an idea right now. I don't want to think about it.
I thank God every day that I'm not dead and for helping me turn the negatives into a positive experience. I can't help but to keep trying to make myself into a better person. I've done some awful things and had awful things happen to me. I want to change that and make myself into an overall better person. And maybe give love another chance. When I can fully devote myself to someone who completely deserves it.
I thank God every day that I'm not dead and for helping me turn the negatives into a positive experience. I can't help but to keep trying to make myself into a better person. I've done some awful things and had awful things happen to me. I want to change that and make myself into an overall better person. And maybe give love another chance. When I can fully devote myself to someone who completely deserves it.