Running Blind
I met a most amazing girl several months ago. At first it was just small talk, but lately I find myself falling for her. Every time we meet, I get to know a bit more about her, I'm thoroughly caught up in who she is at heart. I like getting to know people deep down, what makes them happy and sad, what brings them to the edge of tears or what lights their world on fire. I'm still getting to know her, I'm not even sure how real any of this is. I want it to be real. That's the understatement of my life!
Realistically I'm too old for her, but I've read where things like this can work, or maybe I'm deluding myself? My head warns me to not fall too fast or too hard. It's just I've never encountered anyone like her, I want to devour her, but hold back because of previous heartbreaks. I suppose the saying "Dance like nobody's watching; love like you've never been hurt. Sing like nobody's listening; live like it's heaven on earth" rings so true in this case, I'll just have to take my chances, even if it's no chance at all. I don't want there to be any drama, only truth and love and enjoyment of every second I have with her.
As I look into her beautiful eyes, I want to love her forever, but also to let her go, to go on whatever path she chooses for herself. She's not mine to have, only to love. I want to be conscious of my time with her. My daydream, my dream, my everything and everyone I've ever wanted is real. When she sits next to me and we talk, I want to be there and hear her voice, hear her words. When her hand touches mine, I want to accept that simple gift and not think of all the moments I've had without her. I dream of kissing her, but I'm not sure if that will ever happen. I feel as if I'm living my dream every time I'm with her. I want to jump & dance, to lick her up and down like a puppy-dog who has spent the day alone. I want her to feel happy to see me, to know how much I care, to know how much she is loved and wanted. I want her to be happy, to make her laugh, to help her find that place in this world where work and love and life live in harmony.
I'm running blind into an abyss of heaven or hell. I guess you can't have one without the other, but heaven would be nice for a change.
Realistically I'm too old for her, but I've read where things like this can work, or maybe I'm deluding myself? My head warns me to not fall too fast or too hard. It's just I've never encountered anyone like her, I want to devour her, but hold back because of previous heartbreaks. I suppose the saying "Dance like nobody's watching; love like you've never been hurt. Sing like nobody's listening; live like it's heaven on earth" rings so true in this case, I'll just have to take my chances, even if it's no chance at all. I don't want there to be any drama, only truth and love and enjoyment of every second I have with her.
As I look into her beautiful eyes, I want to love her forever, but also to let her go, to go on whatever path she chooses for herself. She's not mine to have, only to love. I want to be conscious of my time with her. My daydream, my dream, my everything and everyone I've ever wanted is real. When she sits next to me and we talk, I want to be there and hear her voice, hear her words. When her hand touches mine, I want to accept that simple gift and not think of all the moments I've had without her. I dream of kissing her, but I'm not sure if that will ever happen. I feel as if I'm living my dream every time I'm with her. I want to jump & dance, to lick her up and down like a puppy-dog who has spent the day alone. I want her to feel happy to see me, to know how much I care, to know how much she is loved and wanted. I want her to be happy, to make her laugh, to help her find that place in this world where work and love and life live in harmony.
I'm running blind into an abyss of heaven or hell. I guess you can't have one without the other, but heaven would be nice for a change.