Siiiike ( Read more... )

I am so incredibly broken its unreal. i didnt leave my bed at all today except to shower and use the restroom. I dont understand how someone can say they love you one minute and then completely shut you out of their life the next. I miss him...I miss him so much it hurts, and it has only been a day. I wish there was some way i could get him to talk ( Read more... )

last night...actually all of yesterday was absolutely horrible. I know that this is the right thing for us, but it is so damn hard. Everything I do reminds me of him. He made me so happy, and now he is breaking my heart worse than anyone ever has...I don't know when I will see him again or if I even have the strength not to. All I know is that I ( Read more... )

I'm gonna choose to not answer that question. I am confused...still. Last night was the definition of amazing... but am I still his girlfriend? I honestly have no idea what the hell is going on.

Sitting in my room and the power went off..I had a dream last night about jay. He had a tattoo that had his birthday on it and september 27th..im not sure what the means. He also told me he saw his future if he wouldve lived and he wouldve been a ceo of a major company...he wouldve made it big just like he wanted. He also told me he saw my future ( Read more... )

...You pulled the trigger you fucking ass hole ( Read more... )

Well obviously...so do people ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling. Like a sickness in the pit of my stomach, and it happens every time freddy decides to do something without me. I wish I wasn't like this, I don't choose it, it's just the way I feel. I guess it's jealousy but I don't know. But I love him and I don't wanna make him mad, or get anywhere close to what he almost did the other night ( Read more... )

So today was a good day, a really good day. I really feel like freddy wants to be with me, he is trying and although he may not think it, he is doing a good job. I hope this works... well school tomorrow and hookah bar...maybe?

Ok so I'm not done writing... can you really blame me? It has been 5 months... wow it feels like its been five years. So in my last entry I don't think I explained my current life situation well enough. For one... I am enrolled and regularly attending college... yay for me. Um no job at the moment...but I will change that soon. I am in a pretty ( Read more... )