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I friggin hate work. I hate that I can't sleep. I've been tired all day. I even tried playing music on my phone, and for a few minutes I thought it was going pretty well, but apparently that was false since I am not updating a journal I haven't updated in AGES.
I never feel like I belong anywhere. At parties, I always feel like some outside person, or like, an add-on, or an after thought. Someone invited out of politeness, but maybe not wanted too much. I guess its been this way for the majority of my life. There have been little phrases where it maybe wasn't as prominent, but its still always there.
I feel like people are constantly like "come visit. Hang out. blah blah" but I don't know why, and I feel like when people do things and have actual plans, they don't invite me. It's like...am I that person that everyone just makes vague implications of wanting to do something to, so they feel nice, but they don't really want to do anything?
Probably. I never fit in. I guess I don't really do anything to change it, I just feel like it should happen, but it never does.
And now in live in someone's basement. So uh, I don't even belong where I live.
I never feel like I belong anywhere. At parties, I always feel like some outside person, or like, an add-on, or an after thought. Someone invited out of politeness, but maybe not wanted too much. I guess its been this way for the majority of my life. There have been little phrases where it maybe wasn't as prominent, but its still always there.
I feel like people are constantly like "come visit. Hang out. blah blah" but I don't know why, and I feel like when people do things and have actual plans, they don't invite me. It's like...am I that person that everyone just makes vague implications of wanting to do something to, so they feel nice, but they don't really want to do anything?
Probably. I never fit in. I guess I don't really do anything to change it, I just feel like it should happen, but it never does.
And now in live in someone's basement. So uh, I don't even belong where I live.