the details in the fabric, are the things that make you panic...

[silvercharm]

i wish that it didn't have to be this way.
i wish that the perfect friendship would have, could have conquered all.
but we just didn't quite make it, did we?

i am too hurt, too torn down to try and make this happen any longer.
and in someways, i feel as though i failed as a friend.
because i let it all get to me...... i let it run my ever move.
and so in someways, i feel partly responsible for this.

but i've realized that this is what has to happen for me, and for them.

i miss you already.
i miss us already.
and i look at my phone and want to call so bad that i have to toss it across the room.
just so i won't.
i already miss the fun and laughter.
the comfort that knowing someone was always there.
that someone knew everything and anything.
and without speaking everything was answered

i'm not sure i have that anymore.

i won't miss the tears. or the fights.
i'd have to say that in the end, when you add it all up, the bad outweighs the good.

but the good isn't easily forgotten.
and neither are you.
and neither are us.

so let this be, the letter you will never read, the goodbye i will never be able to say.