Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?

[silverandcold08]

I don't see how this could have happened. He was a good guy, my family loved him...I loved him. He said it was all just a joke, well I'm not laughing. I want so badly to just forget all this, i want it all to just go away. But it's not going to and things won't be the same. I could never blame her for what happened its not her fault. i know it's not my fault either, but why is it then that I feel so embarassed for what has happened. I feel like the fool. I figured he would have understood the pain and known the lines not cross. I guess he was wrong, most people would have known better, maybe i just never talked to him about trust and all that enough. Either way it hurts...and to think i was doing so good, it had been a whole month...down the drain. I've been angry as hell all day, even Mr.ecker asked me after class if i was angry. I guessed he figured after i told chris, chad, and jd to fuck of everytime they tried to talk to me. How did this happen, why does this hurt so bad?

I will forgive but I won't forget
And I hope you know you've lost my respect
Cause im not a pawn,
For you to play in your fucking game
I've got dignity
And a dream that I want to achieve
Under pressure,
You crumble down, you let me down
And I'm not deaf
And all I hear are your empty promises

Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?

Laters all~ Cass