I've been so good about things. My tattoos symbolize my strength in quitting, with being done with that part of my life. Now I'm back to square one. I dont remember when it started again, i just know i cant let this get out of hand again. i know he wouldnt want this, but like i said i took care of my own punishing. i just cant seem to find pain to ( Read more... )

Fill this out about me!!! **BUT FIRST** REPOST a blank copy to all of your friends (including me) so they can fill it out about you! Got it ( Read more... )

At last, I am happy and it's all because of him. At a time when things should be hard for me, I'm dealing with a peace of mind. I'm getting a better feel for things, and how he feels about me. My insecurities wander on, but I cant hide. I have my uncertainties, but those are unraveling with the time we spend together. It's scary, how I feel. I so ( Read more... )

For once I can blissfully say, I have no idea what that fuck is going on. I'm scared and excited all at the same time. He looks at me with those brown eyes, and all I want to do is hide, unfortunately I tend to find myelf paralyzed. I'm used to having control, being the calm, rational one. I can usually read people, I know what people think of me ( Read more... )

I'm in this state of shock of the events of my night, but it was amazing. Things are going to be different for now on. I can feel the change this time around. No one has ever been able to get through to me like Trevor did tonight. I feel so good right now and the best part of it is I actually feel. I can't believe the turn in my life. I can do it ( Read more... )

Things have been far to coincidental lately. To meet a guy through an ex of mine, who right after lost both our friendship (well mine yet again), then find that we are completely perfect for each other. We were both so set on hating the opposite sex, until of course we saw each other. God it's like something out of a movie. Times got hard for the ( Read more... )

While my head may be still spinning, there are only a few things I can say. I just hope I don't regret saying them later ( Read more... )

"Fucking, What the Fucking, Fuck, Who the Fuck, Fuck this Fucking, How did you two Fucking, Fucks, Fuck!"..."Well it certianly illistrates the diversity of the word."

Wow two weekends in a row, without miss. Man, I suck. Should have left my truck at Hollie's. Ah well no regrets, right? I'm grounded for a week for spending the night out somewhere other than where I told my mom I would be, and my dad being a cop drove by and saw my truck and ratted me out. Fuck him for checking up on me, and fuck me for slipping ( Read more... )

So yeah over all this weekend sucked. I havent been sleeping, and when I do it's light and interrupted. People always get the wrong idea, and I suppose it is my fault, but why dont I stop it? My heart hurts, and I dont just mean that in am emo way, it literally does. It's not going away, it just gets worse. Why do I do these things. I say stay safe ( Read more... )