It's all the same.
I found the Perfect song for me, and how I feel at this time, the limbo I feel like I'm floating in. I know my feelings, but I don't know the other side of all this. Maybe I am as Fletcher pointed out, maybe I do never smile, and when I do, it's only for a few seconds, and then I go back to my emotionless visage... I'm ALWAYS unhappy now-and-days, there was a point where I was really happy with how things were going, not even that long ago, but that got ruined, by me, as I assume, yet again.
Maybe it is as Pieter said, I look like I'm crying inside, I am, I'm always too proud to admit it though, I don't like having everyone pay attention to me, I don't like everyone trying to help, I want the ONE person or couple people to talk to me, to try and mend things, so I'm not like this...but not everything can be mended.
Today I was sick, sick to my stomach, with a huge headache to boot, it was horrible, and when my grandfather came to pick me up because I was seeing the room spinning, he definately knew that the cause of it is unrested thoughts/emotions and stress. I want to break down and cry my eyes out to someone, particularly Hancock, because he always gives good advice, but I screwed that one up royally, and I doubt I could ever have it fixed. In this dilemma, I feel like I'm stuck, with no one to turn to who will give me good and helpful advice that will help me to try to fix everything, everything that I have inevitably screwed up, as I always do.
"All The Same" by Sick Puppies.
I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here
[Chorus]
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will, to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am
I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same
In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same
Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
On top of all this, I feel guilty for writing out my very emotional rants, when really, in the perspective of all this, this is insignificant, I don't have the problems to deal with that my friends do, mine are mostly in the past, and just haunt me through unrest, and cause my present to be very awkward, random, and skewed.
At least I have my Cheshire Cat stuffed animal to comfort me.
Maybe it is as Pieter said, I look like I'm crying inside, I am, I'm always too proud to admit it though, I don't like having everyone pay attention to me, I don't like everyone trying to help, I want the ONE person or couple people to talk to me, to try and mend things, so I'm not like this...but not everything can be mended.
Today I was sick, sick to my stomach, with a huge headache to boot, it was horrible, and when my grandfather came to pick me up because I was seeing the room spinning, he definately knew that the cause of it is unrested thoughts/emotions and stress. I want to break down and cry my eyes out to someone, particularly Hancock, because he always gives good advice, but I screwed that one up royally, and I doubt I could ever have it fixed. In this dilemma, I feel like I'm stuck, with no one to turn to who will give me good and helpful advice that will help me to try to fix everything, everything that I have inevitably screwed up, as I always do.
"All The Same" by Sick Puppies.
I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here
[Chorus]
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will, to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am
I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same
In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same
Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
On top of all this, I feel guilty for writing out my very emotional rants, when really, in the perspective of all this, this is insignificant, I don't have the problems to deal with that my friends do, mine are mostly in the past, and just haunt me through unrest, and cause my present to be very awkward, random, and skewed.
At least I have my Cheshire Cat stuffed animal to comfort me.