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today i stood in the rain crying
tomorrow morning ina goes on her honeymoon... she gets back sunday evening... she's moving back to norway in july
sunday morning i leave glasgow... for a very long time...
i can't leave this city... these people... i feel like i'm going through a terrible break up
i'm being dumped by glasgow and theres nothing i can do about it
on a lighter note... i'm becoming obsessed with serial killers...
on youtube there's a series of biographies of serial killers... and wikipedia has a list of all the people who've been executed in america since like 1970 or something... and then theres lostvault.com which consists of prisoners who are looking for penpals... include its own death row section... this makes me want to do a research project... maybe i'll start working on ideas for dissertations for a masters... or even my phd subject... (no i am not finished with education) something along the lines of real life serial killers inspiring fictional charters... and the way these films are now said to be bad influences on the 'youth of today'... maybe whats really damaging society today is society yesterday?
we are after all "the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television..."
it doesnt help that i've just sat and watched silence of the lambs... even worse is seeing as its 4am... someone just put film stills up of a film i list as one of my favourites... but i only saw it once at the cinema... but the dvd sits next to me unwatched... and i'm so so tempted
oh dear journal i've just realised how long ago our last chat was... well my parents came up for the graduation ceremony... they were as they usually are... awkward around social settings... so we didnt really stick around... which upset me a little... but i would have felt bad if they'd stood there feeling awkward while i tried to talk to friends etc...
they bought my a silver tiffanys bracelet... which i absolutely adore... its a complete surprise as well... i kinda didnt think about them getting me a present because they'd already given me so much money while i've been here... and in the past my mum has taken me shopping and asked me to choose... so her choosing was a lovely surprise... which of course could have gone wrong but obviously not very wrong... it is tiffanys after all!!
and now to take a moment to return to the vague...
i miss you... and i'm so sorry that i do... because i don't want to... and... i texted you and i shouldn't have... because i was just attention seeking... i still am... i want you to miss me...
ok so maybe thats not so vague...
tomorrow morning ina goes on her honeymoon... she gets back sunday evening... she's moving back to norway in july
sunday morning i leave glasgow... for a very long time...
i can't leave this city... these people... i feel like i'm going through a terrible break up
i'm being dumped by glasgow and theres nothing i can do about it
on a lighter note... i'm becoming obsessed with serial killers...
on youtube there's a series of biographies of serial killers... and wikipedia has a list of all the people who've been executed in america since like 1970 or something... and then theres lostvault.com which consists of prisoners who are looking for penpals... include its own death row section... this makes me want to do a research project... maybe i'll start working on ideas for dissertations for a masters... or even my phd subject... (no i am not finished with education) something along the lines of real life serial killers inspiring fictional charters... and the way these films are now said to be bad influences on the 'youth of today'... maybe whats really damaging society today is society yesterday?
we are after all "the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television..."
it doesnt help that i've just sat and watched silence of the lambs... even worse is seeing as its 4am... someone just put film stills up of a film i list as one of my favourites... but i only saw it once at the cinema... but the dvd sits next to me unwatched... and i'm so so tempted
oh dear journal i've just realised how long ago our last chat was... well my parents came up for the graduation ceremony... they were as they usually are... awkward around social settings... so we didnt really stick around... which upset me a little... but i would have felt bad if they'd stood there feeling awkward while i tried to talk to friends etc...
they bought my a silver tiffanys bracelet... which i absolutely adore... its a complete surprise as well... i kinda didnt think about them getting me a present because they'd already given me so much money while i've been here... and in the past my mum has taken me shopping and asked me to choose... so her choosing was a lovely surprise... which of course could have gone wrong but obviously not very wrong... it is tiffanys after all!!
and now to take a moment to return to the vague...
i miss you... and i'm so sorry that i do... because i don't want to... and... i texted you and i shouldn't have... because i was just attention seeking... i still am... i want you to miss me...
ok so maybe thats not so vague...