Woo Hoo!
Seems like forever since I last updated this thing... I swear. I need to work on it, I know. So, what's my life been going through in the last month, hmm... lets see.
Well, I have been sick for the last week and I can't seem to get rid of this mess either. It really sucks cause I don't get sick often, but when I do it just never seems to leave. Ick!
School is almost over for the term. My last day is Monday and I can't wait for it to be over with. I got finals on Friday and Saturday so I will hopefully do well since I have pently of time to study for them. *Crosses fingers* I really want to do well on these finals cause I need my gpa to come up and quick.
Still not working just sitting on my ass, ah the joy. I will be ready to start looking at the start of the new year so hopefully 2006 will bring a brighter side of things. Cause it seems that the end of this 2005 year has been a real drag since about August.
As far as the love life... ha, it is there. Not sure if there is a whole lot of love, but it is there. Chad and I have been talking a little more since Thanksgiving which really made me happy. I even went to spend the night with him about two weeks ago, which I have to admit, felt good just to be back in the arms of someone you still love even if you know deep down they don't love you back. *Sighs* I know it is sad, but it is true. There has always been something about him that has just made me feel different and I don't know what it is... it maybe love, it may not be, but I can truly say that I would die for him. And no I don't reget going to see him because I listened to what my heart told me, which can be my down fall at times, but that is just who I am. Man, what I would give to have things back to the way they use to be. But that is in the past... and probably will remain that way, but I am still stuck. Stuck on this one hope that MAYBE, just maybe, he will see what I see.
I have also been talking to this guy name Scott. He is a really nice guy and just so happen that we are a lot alike... but there is a problem. I told him when we first started talking that I am not looking for a relationship with anyone and that I wanted to remain single. However, he wasn't listening to that. I truly believe he thought in the back of his mind he was going to be able to get me out of this "funk" that I am in. So now he is mad at me because I don't want to be with him. It really does suck since I really do care for him as a friend, but what can I do? I didn't want to lead him on and say well maybe we can hook up sometime soon, but I knew that I wouldn't be fair to him nor myself. One of those things where you are damned if you do, damned if you don't. I guess the best thing for me is to back off since he is pissed and if he wants to talk, he knows where to reach me.
Or if all else fails... it will just be another person on my list that doesn't speak to me anymore just because of who I am. Ah, life... isn't it wonderful?
I think I am gonna call it a day for now. So y'all have a good one and I will hopefully be back before another month goes by.
Until next time...
Stay true to yourself!
Well, I have been sick for the last week and I can't seem to get rid of this mess either. It really sucks cause I don't get sick often, but when I do it just never seems to leave. Ick!
School is almost over for the term. My last day is Monday and I can't wait for it to be over with. I got finals on Friday and Saturday so I will hopefully do well since I have pently of time to study for them. *Crosses fingers* I really want to do well on these finals cause I need my gpa to come up and quick.
Still not working just sitting on my ass, ah the joy. I will be ready to start looking at the start of the new year so hopefully 2006 will bring a brighter side of things. Cause it seems that the end of this 2005 year has been a real drag since about August.
As far as the love life... ha, it is there. Not sure if there is a whole lot of love, but it is there. Chad and I have been talking a little more since Thanksgiving which really made me happy. I even went to spend the night with him about two weeks ago, which I have to admit, felt good just to be back in the arms of someone you still love even if you know deep down they don't love you back. *Sighs* I know it is sad, but it is true. There has always been something about him that has just made me feel different and I don't know what it is... it maybe love, it may not be, but I can truly say that I would die for him. And no I don't reget going to see him because I listened to what my heart told me, which can be my down fall at times, but that is just who I am. Man, what I would give to have things back to the way they use to be. But that is in the past... and probably will remain that way, but I am still stuck. Stuck on this one hope that MAYBE, just maybe, he will see what I see.
I have also been talking to this guy name Scott. He is a really nice guy and just so happen that we are a lot alike... but there is a problem. I told him when we first started talking that I am not looking for a relationship with anyone and that I wanted to remain single. However, he wasn't listening to that. I truly believe he thought in the back of his mind he was going to be able to get me out of this "funk" that I am in. So now he is mad at me because I don't want to be with him. It really does suck since I really do care for him as a friend, but what can I do? I didn't want to lead him on and say well maybe we can hook up sometime soon, but I knew that I wouldn't be fair to him nor myself. One of those things where you are damned if you do, damned if you don't. I guess the best thing for me is to back off since he is pissed and if he wants to talk, he knows where to reach me.
Or if all else fails... it will just be another person on my list that doesn't speak to me anymore just because of who I am. Ah, life... isn't it wonderful?
I think I am gonna call it a day for now. So y'all have a good one and I will hopefully be back before another month goes by.
Until next time...
Stay true to yourself!